Back Again

It’s been a good minute since I’ve blogged.  Three of my family members have died in the past month and one of my cousins is currently in the ICU in critical condition.  Last night I couldn’t sleep.  Right now I’m very tired.  A lot has been happening.  I can’t type it all up.  I’m exhausted in more ways than one.  For the past few days everyone has been telling me how pretty I am.  I don’t know if they meant it or not , but I’ve noticed that people judge others by looks a lot.  It’s really got me thinking about how stereotypical and judgemental people can be.  I hope I can put aside people’s appearances and look deeper at the more important aspects of people. Inshallah.  Sure we should all present ourselves well and take care of ourselves, but there’s somethings that people sometimes can’t change about how they look.  I once knew someone who was so ugly but once I got to know them they had the most beautiful soul I’d ever seen, mashallah.

Recently I sent pictures to someone, sending them the not-so-good ones I had first. Sure enough I believe they didn’t want anything to do with me because they thought I was ugly.  God forgive me if I’m wrong. I’m so sick of this life (no I don’t mean I want to die right now)…what I mean is I’m sick of how everyone worries about things that will all pass away when we die.  In the end all that will matter will be how we lived and what we submitted to.  My goal is to submit to God alone. I’ve realized especially in the past few weeks with having to deal with death so much… that this life can easily be taken away and that we don’t need to waste our time with anything that isn’t beneficial towards our goal of Heaven.

g2g Write more when I get the chance.